Wednesday, May 30, 2007
DAMN IT!!!! once bitten twice shy
I did it to myself.
I must be one of the dumbest people ever.
I still push my luck when I almost lost him.
I think theres gotta be some type of abberation I need todeal with cause I this OBVIOUSLY DOESNT MAKE SENSE!!!
Many have this abberation. Thats probably why were so stuck on it and freakin MESS UP SHIT WE REGRET!!!!!
Damn ass hole!!! (who Im talking to, I dont know quite yet but Ill figure it out)
Posted at 10:05 pm by
Juni
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the only one in my life is you
the only one
to you im true
searched and found
the one for me
the one I love
where my heart will beat
the curse is this
we started young
I wanted to be seroius
but I couldnt resist
the touch of another
but you forgave me for this
I broke ur heart
what you did was this
picked up the pieces
your needle and thread
glued over glue
and thread over thread
I did this to you
my angel
you
why did i
how could I
my minds so confused
now you hold your heart tighter
firmer to your chest
I should be the one you give it to
I did this to you
yes
your cursed
with loving me baby
its worse
you think i dont think of you lately
tho its killin you inside your still here with me
its crazy
I should be so much stronger
tell you to leave
maybe
maybe I could make you trust
maybe
maybe "its over" isnt us
maybe
maybe I can save u this time
maybe
someone else should
pick up the pieces
maybe
someone else should
wash them and clean them
maybe
someone else should
mend your broken heart the way its supposed to
take out tho olse strings and disolve all the old glue
Posted at 12:17 am by
Juni
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Monday, May 21, 2007
Who Are You?
Who are you if you are not helping a child learn?
You are letting a child fail.
Who are you if you dont help a community come together?
You are letting a community fall apart.
Who are you?
Who have you been?
Who re you helping?
Who have you helped?
You reach futher than you know.
Help a child learn about math
and you could have created a teacher.
Help create a teacher,
and they may influence hundreds.
Help a child learn about government
and you could have created a president.
Help create a president
and you may have created another Abraham Lincoln.
Help a child learn about science
and you may have created a scientist.
Help create a scientist
and you may have created a cure for AIDS.
Help a child learn about history
and they may become a preachor.
Help create a preachor
and you may create another Martin Luther King Jr.
Help a child
any child and you may change the world.
One week, one day, one hour, ONE MINUTE could be all it takes.
What have you created?
A brighter future?
Or have you let your abilities go to waste?
Posted at 06:40 pm by
Juni
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Saturday, May 12, 2007
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Juni
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Thursday, December 30, 2004
put ur number on this paper cause i would love to date ya ill holla at u when im back in town...lol
ok that wasnt funny.
well my best friend left to Cali... I was pregnant and I had a miss cairage. Im bloated from the misscairage and nothings going right...oh well christmas was better than i expected. now lests see if New years eve is fun...I doubt it but hey....the wierd thing is usually id be sad....but im not at all...I dont feel anything. It'll come to me...but it hasnt hit me yet....well....this is all I have to say for now..I knw its nt much and it has been a while since I wrote on this but ive been busy being not busy
Posted at 06:30 pm by
Juni
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
Ok some of u are probably gonna get all....annoying with me.... Im sorry if u get all uncomfortable with ppl being very very honest about sex...If that sounds like u please press exit now....
Ok..... all I can say is OUUUUUUCH!!!!!!!! My coochie is toooo smaaaall Im gonna cry....he came over again and we had sex and itt hurt....sooo bad...Im still hurting...I mean it feels good but afterwards it hurts. Anyways...Im so sad.....Im trying to be smart about it tho... Nhandi cheated on Cory...she FUCKED HIM!!! damn ti!!!! theres a lot of shit that went on but I really dont want to talk about it right now...just know her mom thinks i did shit wrong...blah blah blah k tell u later
Posted at 09:32 pm by
Juni
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Monday, December 06, 2004
Sorry for Not writting in forever I just been out with friends a lot of the time and didnt fee like any of it was worth writting about...BUT I GOT SOMETHING NOOOW!!!
Does anyone think its ho-ish to have sex in the back of a car? hehehe I dont! If I saw that Id laugh and knock on the window and twll them they were alright in my book...but yea....ok ahem get ready for the stupidest shit EVER!!!
OK OK OK! So I have a boyfriend and his name is Cortez...I dont like him...I love him but not in that way...I really care about him but I couldnt see myself having sex with him...k? ok!
I've been talking to this guy on the side (cause Im a stupid bad person and I hate it!) anyways we talked for like a while now and shit and all that crap and he and I went out yesterday and um...we all went to the beach right? (me, my best friend, him and his friend) and we were on the beach and he wanted to buy me anything I wanted and all that crap...I said no and I dont like ppl buying shit for me...and I wouldnt tell him wat I wanted. ANYWAYS we walked on the beach and shit and I made him laugh so much and it was great! I loved it....for some reason he thought I wasnt feelin him....he thought I didnt like him and that was stupid so I told him so and crap...anyways we went back to my house cause he has to meet my mom cause she insisted on it this time so I was like watever...ehe was soooo scared and once he did he was good...I told him that she would just smile and stare...stair or however thats spelled anyways she would do that and he was like I was so scared to meet u but ur cool as hell and blah blah blah and I was like RIGHT!!! I know!!! Isnts she doing everything I told u sed do and blah blah blah....anyways we left and I forgot that the friend of his asked where to get weed cause them two smoke. anyways I called my brother and asked him and he said its too late to get any so I was like okaaay and we went to this place right around the block from where Nhandi stays she she went inside and came out awith some weed....and they smoked...ugh! anyways they smoked when they got to the beach, they left the car and we stayed in it...he as high off his ass and *crys* he kissed my neck!!!!!! U cant do that without starting something!!! DAMN IT!!!and he kissed it so well!!!! I melted! Seriously my body wouldnt move it felt so yummy! anyways he like tried 8 times and everytime we really got into it I stopped him...I told him I was all scared that Nhandi would come back and see that shit then I had to pee...by the time we got back from peeing the mood was ruined....so watever....maybe 5 minutes later we were back at it and :( sad to say...I let it slip! we had sex.....in the car....it was great! I know no one wants to know my sexually shit but fuck u all cause this is my diary I can say wat I want. anyways I can NEVER cum on the bottom but I came soooooooooooooooo close!....AND HIS STOMACHE!!!!! oh my! oh my oh my oh my! all I can say it YUMMY!!!! He had it aaaaaall muskully and yummy...lol i was playing and said his boobis are bigger than mine...lol ....not true but its close!!!!I've got big b small c...he was like a b...it was yummy and I liiiiiked it! :( the sad thing is that afterwards I was hurting! cause its been a while and all that...lol so I was walking funny for a little while and I couldnt sit down...lol ok now is where everyone comments and says stupid shit about how much of a ho i am when they dont even know me and how not ho-ish I am...
that wasnt the first time I saw him ppl !!!
Posted at 10:37 am by
Juni
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004
hahaha wat a dumb ass I am
Ok me and cortez are sooooo over. Im not gonna be with him...lol Nhandi says Im unhealthy....cause he disrespected me and I slammed the door on him and he drove off and hasnt called and I dont care...when people do something to piss me off I loose all feelings for them and i dont care how they act. Its sorta wierd. I dont know how to describe it except for if they piss me off and dont appologize I couldnt care less about them. We have a fight and they dont call I move on. its as simple as that. I dont care. I think about him....but not like you know "i miss him I want him to call blah blah blah" its more like a "hm....I wonder why he didnt call....OH WELL!!!! NEEEEXT!!!!"
My dad told my family about me being raped and now they dont want me to come for the holidays...That pissed me off to no end because him or the pussy (susan) told them and they dont even need to know. Hes a fucked ass hole. They are my family too and him taking my family away from me is bull shit. I need to see my uncle...I swear if I saw my dad right now Id atack him. Id probably go to jail for atempted murder. Im not kidding either. It seems like Im just over reacting or over exagerating but its not. If I saw him I would beat his ass down. I know he'd fihght me back but when I get into fights I loose all my feelings so I wouldnt feel anythign hes doing to me. I would fuck him up so bad. I wouldnt stop...I would use chair tables..the ground....anything and everything. Yup this senorita es muy loca but he deserves it. you have no idea wat hell hes put me through. Im not saying that I would want to kill my father I just seem to not know when to stop when I get into fights...so it would depend when someone pulled me off of my father. Is that so wrong? LOL...I cant believe Im laughing about attepted murder...lol Oh god...this is so funny, sad and stupid. Oh well. I know its wrong
k Im done...leavea comment...lol see how phyco I am...
Posted at 04:25 pm by
Juni
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Friday, November 19, 2004
I've been thinking about my uncle lately...A LOT lately!
I miss him so much! Thats wierd. When I was a kid I never thought I would miss him.
My uncle is ex military so he has this thing where he doesnt show his feelings and he was really erally mean to everyone around him...hates his wife, children and all that. Never was happy or proud.
But I keep on remembering. When I was a kid I was a bad ass and he hated me. I was curse infron of them. cuss my family out and basically, I was a stupid little brat! Anyways, I got out of that stage and over time he would compliment me...say things like you are turning into a beautful young woman, Im proud of you! Things like that! He was becoming sweet to me and we would hang out together while he would hate the rest of the world.
But he was still an ass to everyone else.actually...during christmas my aunt would pick up presents for the famiily and say that bill got some of them. Well...last year he ACTUALLY got me a present. HE gave it to me...HE wrapped it...HE picked it out. I remember being so happy. It was the worst present in the world but it was the thought. He never does that with anyone. anyways what was I saying?????
OH! This year he is dying. He had more than half his tounge removed, he has no vocal box and he has a hole in his throat. The doctors say it came back and there is nothing left for them to take out so basically...they r saying hes gonna die slowly and their is nothing he can do about it....so he's making peace with the world.
He is becoming a sweet sweet man and I love him so dearly. I dont even understand a lot of wat he says now but I listen anyways because I know he needs somone to talk to. No one can stand looking at him or being around him long. I love him so much. hes the best person. His soul is so beautiful. I just wish he'd show it moer...anyways. THe Maxwell song that I have on my page reminds me of him casue I know I should be hoping but I cant stop thinking. lol al lthe things that I should have said all the things i should have done that I never did. allt hat.
The things are... (my family is a bunch of racists..they come from a small town and its segragated like hell) ..I should have told him about who I like to date....the people I am friends with, the things I do. EVERYTHING!! I should have been there when he needed me..I should be there for thanks giving but I cant. I need to be with my mom. I just want to call him up and tell him....just blurt it all out...i know he cant talk so I would just speak. I only want him to listen. I want him to know everything b4 he goes but I have to talk to ihim for a little bit b4 I spring that on him!
anyways Im going out tongiht...probably going to a club...hope I have fun!!!
Posted at 03:28 pm by
Juni
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
does this clear it up? or u want me to go on?
I always hung out with women, druggies and yuppies in school. Does that make me a rich, drug using, gay man?
this was a comment by another bloggy person...I dont mind it at all..I wanna explain myself.
ok, you know how if someone is dedicated to thier job and they are at it a lot then they are more likey to have friends from work....right? Cause they are at it like 24/7....well...Im with poor people 24/7...so I have more poor friends..im not gonna go outa my way to meet rich people. If I meet them and they are cool then Ill stay in touch...I just am around black people a lot so...I seem to have a lot of black friends. Its as simple as that. Sorry to dissapoint. Im not a wigger. I dont discriminate. I have white friends and spanish friends too...arab friends...lol I have an albino friend....I dont just have black friends. I dont dress a certain way to attract black people or watever. I dress in wat I like. I have all types of clothes....If I like it I buy it.
Posted at 03:04 pm by
Juni
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